So, if you follow my posts, you know that I am currently packing for a relocation to Hawaii. I shipped my car last week and the shipping container is sitting in my driveway, to be packed by us and picked up by the shipper on Friday. Today, I hopped in my truck to pick up a ramp for the shipping container and bam…My power steering is gone. Now, ordinarily, this would irritate me but, in the middle of a move overseas, car trouble is double irritating. This is my last week at work and I still had to go back to the office. It just wasn’t a good time to have my steering go out, my truck is supposed to be shipped in a few days.
I dropped the truck off to be serviced, got back to the office and sat down for a breather. As I rubbed my sore arms, (from driving a Ram 1500 without power steering), I reflected on my day. It was a stressful day, things didn’t go the way I wanted them to go. But, more importantly, I was able to look back at the day and recognize that I handled the challenges gracefully, I didn’t stress out, I didn’t verbally abuse anyone, I didn’t take my frustration out on anyone else, I handled the stress of the situation mostly effortlessly.
A few months ago, maybe just a few weeks ago even, the day wouldn’t have gone so well. It seems regular meditation has given me the ability to handle the stress of every day situations without loosing my cool. Not only that, but I wouldn’t consider this and every day situation. Moving is stressful, the kind of stress that one does not encounter on an ordinary day. Add to that, I am moving over seas, which adds an additional layer of stress because packing a shipping container, balancing it and making sure your stuff isn’t going to topple over a ship is not something you encounter every day. Additionally, as a single parent, motivating a bunch of teenagers to assist with all of these tasks adds another layer of stress.
Anyway, my point is, I handled it all pretty well considering the circumstances and I did so without much effort. Even my sons have noticed my changed state of mind. Yes, they give me crap about my “New Age” meditation practice, but that’s okay because I can see and feel the difference it has made in my life. I am happy to report that my new serenity is stronger than I would’ve expected, given its recent acquisition. I thought perhaps, my new serenity was on shaky legs, too new to carry me through the stress of a move overseas.
As I said before, I think it is important to celebrate small successes in our journey. When I started to recognize the negative state of my own mind and self-talk, I laid the ground work for serenity in all situations. Today proved this fact to me. I feel confident in my practice. I have seen the positive results with my own eyes. I can feel the difference in my own skin and others have noticed my short temper has been replaced with a peaceful acceptance of the circumstances presented to me. My meditation practice has made all the difference. That gives me motivation to keep trucking. The ease with which I handled my stressful moving day was proof enough for me, to keep going, keep practicing, keep learning and keep growing.
Thanks for stopping by and sharing my journey.